| | Current Music: | JC Chazez--> Blowin' me up | | Security: | | | Subject: | group home | | Time: | 10:00 am | | Current Mood: |  determined |
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| 1) henry (he loves MARIE, OLIVIA and LISA)
2) nathan (he's got thez crazy eyes, like he's permenantly cross eyed!)
3) Shane (he's like a younger version of Trevor and MJ..which scares me, and he's a pervert)
4) This new guy (LONG..im talking LONG black stright HURRR. Demands to kno who I am an find out everything about me..WHY?)
5) Trevor (he's not really one of the guys, he lived with Luke for about 12 years..so he's like family to him. He's 21, got a kid..loves to get stoned..UGH..I've known him since I was about 13. He use to come by mah house with Marcel and them other boys. He's so down to earth though, he believes life has a meaning and it shouldn't be wasted. KINDA WEIRD SINCE HIS LIFESTYLE SUX!! But for a 21 year old native boi, he's awesome, like a CLOSE friend)He use to make fun of me, Marie knows how. Then he all of a sudden thought I was an easy target, so he started with the sweet talking and gestures. So really, maybe his purpose for me is like MJ:S
6) MJ--> Merlin Jospeh Pierre ( PET-A-FILE! Well, he's 25 years old, bak in the day we hada lil "thing" going on..so he was convinced we were meant to be. He bought me things I didn't even deserve and gave me money for nothing. He tries hard to be a good guy, but his past always sticks with him so his life is rough. On my 17th birthday he was going 2 get a hotel..for US..ewww. I'll pass. Well..I haven't seen him since December, so today I'm going to go visit him @ the Home. I'm scurred though. I hopo Trev is there. AHAHA, MJ has droopy eyes, they call him Droopy. And his hair is shoulder length and wavey.)
7) LUKE. (Big. Scarey> permenant tattoos on his face. 65. Old. Wise. Has a heart, but can be a jerk. Thinks of me as his lil daughter..so he can be harsh to me when I come over. He's pretty nice since he lets lil criminal badd asses live with him instead of them going to Jevey or Jail. He's brave, and I sometimes wonder why he gets those sudden heart attacks. BOYS..?! He drives the craziest vehicles--> like this huge white truck. He makes the boys skin teepee poles and he outs up a teepee in the bak yard every year. I think he's a "medicine man." He is VERY enthroowed with his Native culture and believe the spirits live amongst him. His fav outting is the local sweatlodge..lol. GOOD TIMES!)
thez r the guys from bak in the day
-marcel
-mitch
-terrance
-laurence
-trevor
i can't remember anymore! They all know me though:S...am I that memeroble? EK. | comments: 4 comments or Leave a comment   |
| | Current Music: | Frankee- F U Right Back | | Security: | | | Subject: | Frankee harsh diss | | Time: | 09:29 am | | Current Mood: |  impressed |
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| K you know that Eamon song, that we all love..LOL. Well, I was listening to HOT 103 @ like 7 on Friday, and I thought I heard Eamon's song, so I turned it up, to find, it was a song written back to "I Don't Want You Back." It's so harsh and funny @ the same time.
FRANKEE
"FU Right Back"
Oh oh
Oooh
No no no
(You know there is two sides to every story)
See I don't know why you cryin' like a bitch
Talkin' shit like a snitch
Why you write a song 'bout me
If you really didn't care
You wouldn't wanna share
Tellin' everybody just how you feel
What I did was your fault somehow
The presents,I threw all that shit out
Don't go cryin' you didn't mean jack
Well guess what your,fuck you right back
What I did was your fault somehow
The presents,I threw all that shit out
Don't go cryin' you didn't mean jack
Well guess what your,fuck you right back
You thought you could really make me moan
I had better sex all along (ha ha ha ha)
I had to do your friend
Now you want me to come back
You must be smokin' crack
Im goin' else where and thats a fact
Fuck all those nights I moaned real loud
Fuck it,I faked it,i'll rent you out
Fuck all those nights you thought you broke my back
Well guess what your,your sex was wack
Fuck all those nights I moaned real loud
Fuck it,I faked it,i'll rent you out
Fuck all those nights you thought you broke my back
Well guess what your,your sex was wack
Whoa whoa
Uh uh yea
Whoa whoa
Uh uh yea
Whoa whoa
Uh uh yea
Whoa whoa
Uh uh yea
You questioned did I care
Maybe I would howl if you wanna come to me
Now it's over
But I do admit i'm glad I didn't catch your crabs
I can't swear bad cause I got to go
What I did was your fault somehow
The presents,I threw all that shit out
Don't go cryin' you didn't mean jack
Well guess what your,fuck you right back.
Is this girl REALLY Eamons Ex though? I found out she is just another girl who got the chance to be signed to a record label. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | I DON'T WANT YOU BACK- EAMON | | Security: | | | Subject: | weekend | | Time: | 02:07 pm | | Current Mood: |  disappointed |
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| | well, itz gunna be a bunk weekend. I can tell already. First Marie is gunna be busy. Tonite I found out shez prolly going out with Stacey and Fab. But she asked mah other friend to join them too, which makes me sad. I mean, I met this guy with her in summmer, what is I wanted to do someting with him too? And I would prolly only go with her anyways. But no, she's going to ask ppl who never even met him to go hang out with him and her. Saturday I usually hang out with Chris, but things aren't gunna last very much longer. Sundays r always bunk. I can't even hang out with Lisa, who WAS my best friend, but we equal trouble together. I actually found I don't have many friends. Which sucks, cuz I'm trying to plan a birthday party, but how can that be possible without friends? I know I can rely on about 4 people. 2 of them who will most likely read this..and respond. Cuz ur in the Library with me right now and u make me feel like u actually care...ur wearing a pink shirt-jeans and u r doing Bio homework so you don't have homework. I love you! Maybe we should hit up THE AVENUE fer mah party..and it will be fun! Well...thatz all for now.. | | comments: 3 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | Fefe Dobson- Everything | | Security: | | | Subject: | skoolz is not cool | | Time: | 09:13 am | | Current Mood: |  blah |
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| I have a spare 2nd period. Andy is beside me..lol. Wut a guy! I just found out his birthday is the SAME day as mah boyfriends. TWINS! (ya, no, thatz scurry) I'm wearing like 3 different scents. MMMMMMMMMM, Yummy! I have to think about my brithday party I want to have. What should I do? Oh man, I had to get Child and Family Services to write a letter allowing me to go on tour, and it just all looks professional. It's KRAZZY! It's almost my EX-best friend-Justin's brithday. Maybe he'll be nice and call me on mine. Since we're born 10 days apart. Spring Break is @ the end of this month. And tour is in like...6 weeks. WOW. I have to werk @ the Daycare after skool. It's beginning to make me bored. The same damn thing everyday! Except the lil 4 year old cute boi-Tariq. He's mulletto. He's got such cute lil curls and he dresses prep. Awww..and he swears..itz funny, but kinda weird. What 4 year old knows BAD werds? Hmmmmm. i hope my best friend shows up soon, I'm real lonely. Liv and Kristina went "shopping." I think they planned that though. I wonder...
In 8 days it will be 2 months with the same guy. That's an accomplishment. Do I see a future though? Hmmmm, lets hope so.
YEAH--> Danielle saved me in mah deep dark depression of loneliness. | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | JET- Be My Girl | | Security: | | | Subject: | mah lil sis is SIK | | Time: | 06:45 pm | | Current Mood: |  exhausted |
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| man, mah rents r out @ the Passion, and I'm here with a helpless lil feverish coughing lil sistah that I sure love and adore. SHes so cute though. She gets this lil cough, and her cheeks go red. Then in a lil voice she asks me for some cumcumber. SOOOO ADORABLE. N E WHO, why is mah dog sitting by here and whining, wut a wimp. *BARK* What is wrong with him? OH NOW THIS guy i met in gr. 7 starts talking to me, how odd? Like you care how I've been. O brother--> gottah deal with this situation now.
im outtie...(like a bellybutton...UGH, I HATE THOZ) | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | Shawn Desman- Superman | | Security: | | | Subject: | Sea of Forgetfulness | | Time: | 06:26 pm | | Current Mood: |  relaxed |
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| Close my eyes, not to remember
Every crime or time I fell
Into the open arms of temptation
Driving the nails
How does Your love remain so faithful?
To one unfaithful
Where do You hide the tears
You should be crying when
I’ve fallen again and
Where do You hide the tears
That fell in the day when I turned You away
You throw them away – the sea of forgetfulness
Draw my heart out of the darkness
Where I was hiding from Your face
Into the open arms of forgiveness
Offering grace
Into the place where there’s no memory
Left to press against me
Stumble or fall, You cover them all
Nothing to hold, You let them go
Your love takes me in and covers within
To welcome the child You know I am | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | Puddle of Mud-Away From Me | | Security: | | | Subject: | friends r useless..:'( | | Time: | 10:07 am | | Current Mood: | crushed |
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| | k, i come 2 skool, itz shitty. then i try to make da best of it, so i go up to mah friend, to find shes being a jerk and ignoring me. then i grab her hand or arm or summem, and she fricken pushes me away and stalks off. so i stand there and try not to cry..but it come out. then leigha and mell try to make me feel better. but im still sad. then i go to math, and try to say hi to mah best friend, and she obviously doesn't hear me or summem, cuz i get no response from her either. then im more sad. then i tell menoukia and danielle, and they tell me not to dwell on friends to make me happy, but thatz all that does. thatz all i have to say. thanx fer the great day guyz :( *tear* | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | Away From the Sun-3 Doors Down | | Security: | | | Subject: | the SIK life | | Time: | 05:36 pm | | Current Mood: |  annoyed |
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| | doesn't it jus' suck wen u wake up @ 2:00 am and feel SIK!!! U go to the bathroom, gag and all, but nuffin' happenz. Then go go bak to bed, to find 5 minutes latah u rly need to upchuck! EWWW. Well..I won't go into details, cuz thatz sik, but lemme jus say I was awake from 2:00am-6:00 am...SICK! Everytime I took something down, it came right back up...not FUN! Then u go and cuddle up with ur kitty...hehe, I luv that. And ur best friends calls ya from skool and askz if ur coming to skool. So I leave, to see a bus drive RIGHT past me:S...dumb bus! Then u get on da bus, and realize it isn't leaving for another 15 minutes!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! So itz time to get off the bus, and I find a guy FOLLOWING ME TO SKOOL. So I bolt, to find I still have an ANGRY tummy, it letz everything go! I get to skool, to find mah SLG is doing Martial Arts..and timbling around, ya okay, kill me already! Itz all good...until chapel..i run outtah Jubilee place so fast...HOW ANNOYING! WHy did I even bother leaving mah house? THEN THEN..i have to pay $1.40 for mah freaken report card. Luckily, I had 1.50, which lead the the Libraian to let me keep 25 cents and pay $1.25. As i open mah report card, I find the most MESSED up thing, I failed a course that I was @ 93%. ERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR. SO i go to werk, and stupid kids r giving me a headache. Call Chris. *rolls her eyes*...u kno how I feel then. HORRIBLE! So i get on the bus @ 5:14...get off..and get on. Im home for 5:31. YES. HOME @ LAST. Until mah mom tells me i might have to go 2 summer skool..for STUPID history! OKAY..THATZ IT. I'm hungry...and mad, and HOT AND BOTHERED... | | comments: Leave a comment |
| well, itz monday morning, i gottah go off ta mah Daycare in a bit. yup. jus listeing to sum tunes. maybe I'll see henry on mah travels today, hez such a trip. yup. therez lil kids going crazy in mah house..*why i outtah* and teeah is so cute, playing peek a boo...:P Mah hair is crazy curly, and mah mom said, "tone down on the black eyeliner, u dun't wanna look like a whore for werk"...GOOD TO KNOW! Well..if mah bestest reads this, write bak...and who the __ is (Anonymous)
latah playah | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | ENRIQUE IGLESIAS / KELIS --> NOT IN LOVE | | Security: | | | Subject: | con-FUSION! | | Time: | 07:09 pm | | Current Mood: |  nauseated |
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| | man, there's times that I wonder if I've made the right decision. Has these last 2 months been a complete waste of time? Thinking spending time with him is so worth it. When I look at him I see a desire, one of love and care. He actually trusts me, knowing that if i felt the same way about him as he does for me, I would not look @ anyone else the same way I look at him. It's like I'm the one for him, he searched for me and found me. But I guess it takes two people to share that. I mean, yeah, he's one in a million, I'd swim a ocean for him (keep in mind I'm so SCARED of water) I have these overwhelming feelings when we're together, like I never want our moments to end. I remember each kiss, each tight embrace..(aha, just all cheesy), each seductive look he gives me. I think about how he says he LOVES me, and I say it back. When we depart (ha ha) , his last words are, "i'll miss you" and ya, I don't exactly want to leave either, but is a matter of "missing" someone who you are so distant to. I love him. I'd do anything for him. But I'm like 17 (a less than a month) why am I seeing a future that may not even be there? Like my little sister said, "Does it bug you when you think of marriage?" But should I be thinking about marriage @ this age? Really, what is the point of dating, RIGHT, to find that person you will spend the rest of your life with. Can you find that when you are 16? I see so many flaws in this relationship, but if it really meant the world to me like I THINK it does, I should look past that. I should be content with what I have, and grateful God actually brought me to him. I'm just ranting because I can't get this off my mind. I have a decision to make, and if I let it be, it might hit me in the face when I'm not prepared... | | comments: 4 comments or Leave a comment |
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